Polkadots: how I was created..

When I was younger I realized I didn't want to fit that..suburban kid mould. My parents wanted me to be this cookie cutter A+ student.

Polkadots was a fantasy character of myself I envisioned in my head. I wanted to stand up for what was right. I decided to say fuck the rules everyone else created I'm making MY OWN FUCKING RULE BOOK. That's exactly what I did. I put aside what everyone else would think and I did it for myself. How I look is not for attention I did what I was comfortable for me. Polkadots came to life. I never thought.. she'd become a real life character. I never thought I'd have the guts to do it. I recently cut my hair so its more fuzzy and 3D and changed my make up. I've retired the blue eye shadow. fuck that shit. Polkadots 2.0 has arrived. New style. New Swaggggg<3
Polkadots was my alter ego. I actually never had a name for her but in high school. . I used to wear polkadots a lot so the nickname stuck when other people called me Polkadots. Like nicki minaj I have different personalities. Some days I wants pink and sparkles and other days I want bats and coffins. I always love rap and rock. I'm a fucking music junkie. Music keeps me alive. I write a lot of lyrics.  I remember when I wanted to shop in hot topic my parents said no you're not a gothic freak. Clothing does not make me who I am... I grew up watching nightmare before christmas every day after pre school.

If I ever die...which some day I will. I want people to remember what I stood for. Anti Racism. Anti Homophobe. Accept everyone. Do not judge people without knowing them. Be yourself and as long as you love who you are thats what truly matters. Who wants ignorant judgmental people for friends any way? I certainly don't. I will not judge somebody until I get to know them for myself. You know why? SO many people have judged me and created rumors without getting to know me. I know how shitty it feels so I will never do it to anybody else. I used to be put on internet tabloids, full of hurtful things people would say about me. At first I was hurt then I realized, these people don't know me and if they actually got to know the real me they wouldn't say those terrible things. I am nothing like people assume I am. People think oh she's some scene suburban girl. Not AT ALL. i hate scene music and all that shit. i live for rap. i do listen to old school rock .. well linkin park three days grace..that stuff. I love being in the hood of my city. You know why? People are real out there. they actually work for shit they have...they're not spoiled ass holes who expect things to be handed to them I like real ass guys .. puerto ricans..black guys who look like wiz khalifa and chris brown <3 :] yummm. okay well im sippin so i better go. haha