Relationships, love, and bullshit.

So I'm sitting here. Plenty of time to think because I'm at home and I'm sick. (FML.)
The more I think about everything..the more I realize.
 I just keep replaying thoughts over and over.
Not many girls are out there that are like me.
Maybe a few but I know for a fact they don't live in my city.
Anyways, I am the type of person when I care about somebody, I do EVERYTHING for them.
I go above and beyond. For example, my ex. . . I cleaned his house watched his kid, took care of his friends, his pets. EVERYTHING. I gave him rides to places when he needed them. What did I get in return? LIED TO.
No longer will I be somebody's door mat they can just walk all over.
Why should I put in so much effort only to get nothing in return. Don't I deserve someone who appreciates everything I do? I look at it this way. I don't take people for granted. You know why? Someone could leave the house tomorrow and die in a car accident and the last memory you'll have is you treating that person like shit. Its scary to think we could all die at any time but, I don't sugar coat shit. I'm a realistic person.
I'm tired of guys taking me for granted. I feel like my city is doomed. Where are the men who actually care about relationships and don't just use people? Is it so much to ask for a sexy guy with a good personality. You can never win. Its like my life is a cycle. Meet a cute guy...start to fall for him he ends up being a total douche bag. Its exhausting and I don't want my life to go that way anymore. I just wish people were more honest and didn't claim to be someone they're not. As for me, I don't claim to be anybody I'm not. I'm not just  claiming to be honest, I actually am. Sometimes too fucking honest. I wish people would stop pretending to be someone they're not. If my exs would've said hi I'm a complete ass hole and I'm going to totally screw you over. That would've saved me some time. I feel like a loner in this city. Every day I hear about this person screwing over that one. I know its not just me. I just don't understand the men here. If you have a good girl, she's honest and willing to do anything to make you happy...does things for you without you having to ask...treats you like a king. WHY IN THE HELL WOULD YOU PASS THAT UP? If I could find a guy who had all the qualities I have, I would never let him go.

I don't understand. Guys often date girls who cheat, lie, create drama, and I'm thinking to myself, why does he go for that when he can have so much better? I'm not trying to sound cocky or anything its just I know I am not like other girls because I see how they act and I could never be like that. Hence why I don't hang out with any except...maybe 2.

I'm just too different for this city. I'm not a liar. I'm not a cheater. I'm not a clingy drama filled bitch who expects a guy to do everything for her. It just confuses me. I guess I just needed to get that out of my system. Now I feel better. I guess I'll just wait for "prince charming." I just don't get where all the honest good looking men have gone. Maybe they don't make that breed any more, like an awesome food in the store they stop selling. Oh, and I hate those stupid fairy tale movies. They fill children's heads with hopes and make life and love seem so easy and great. Fuck that. Sleeping Beauty? Yeah right, she'd be asleep for a day before "prince charming" went out and found the next broad at the club. The Little Mermaid? Yeah right he wouldn't turn her into a human he'd keep her ass in the water and find another bitch on land. I'm beginning to think an honest guy who's good looking doesn't exist. I feel like a dying breed myself.

Honest, good looking.. (I'm not conceited I just have confidence...most days.)
I don't fall for men's manipulative BULLSHIT either.
Typical scenario. Guy hurts girl. guy says "awh babe i love you i didn't mean it."
girl falls for bullshit line and takes guy back. girl gets fucked over again.

IF a guy loves you he would never hurt you in the first place. women need
to stop being so naive thinking a guy will change for you. sweet heart he didn't change he just
got better at lying. once a liar always a liar. Hence why I will never be like that. Liars are scum bags.