you should all read this. about me. thoughts on cheaters, racism, homophobes.

I'm Polkadots, about to be 21. Welcome to my diary.


So, Today made me REALLYYYY think about, everything. I guess I have too big of a heart. I want to meet new people and get away or something. I feel like living here in this city, is not really living at all. So many people here have that same mentality. That selfish "its all about me." I have a big heart and its often taken for granted.


I am a very VERY honest person and not many people here are like that. Sometimes I wonder if theres a secret a** hole society and they all decided to move to the city I live in.  So many people here lie just to get what they want. Its funny, a girl I know called me saying she got cheated on, she took her boyfriend back. I told her when she originally called me "Don't go back to him, you're wasting your time, if he really loved you he wouldn't have ever done that to you." Sure enough, they ended up breaking up because he didn't stop cheating, he got better at lying. She wasted about two years. If you stay with someone who cheats you're only preventing yourself from meeting the right person who WON'T do that. I went back to a cheater one time. It got me NO WHERE. I learned my lesson there.
I feel like if I'm not enough for you, guess what? YOU DON'T DESERVE ME. I feel like the only honest girl here, one that doesn't create drama, or cheat, or lie. I feel too grown to play immature games. I don't care about how much money someone has or where he's from. If he is a honest guy and attractive then great. (My type is usually Puerto Rican or Black. :] ) I've dated a few white guys and asian guys but I find Puerto Ricans and Black guys attractive. (Uhmm like Diggy Simmons, did you see him in the mindless behavior video for Mrs Right? HELLO!) Trey Songz, Wiz Khalifa, the list can go on and on.


Anyways, from that day on, I realized I am NEVER going to let someone walk all over me and take me for granted. Someone who truly loves me will deserve me. I see so many people "staying together for the kids" and being miserable. Truthfully, you should seperate and be with someone who makes you happy, in the long run its better for the child because then your kid isn't around arguing and fighting all the time. My parents are divorced. My mother is much happier and even got re-married and I have a little half brother. My sister has the same father I have and we turned out okay. (I think.)  I had a rather F***ed up childhood but with that I took it as a learning experience. My Mom also got diagnosed with breast cancer which is still very hard to deal with. It tought me I shouldn't take people for granted. When others go through hard times and need advice I am there. Today I really stood up for myself and it felt good. Someone made a racist comment and I made sure that it was taken care of. I do not tolerate racism or homophobic comments. Racism is beyond stupid. Skin color is just that. Skin color. It doesn't make a person who they are. There are good and bad people in every single race. Homophobes are also ignorant. The only difference between gay and straight is what a person is attracted to sexually. If you're a straight person (like myself) you have nothing to do with a gay person's sexual life so it doesn't affect you any ways!!! I'm straight but I love the gay community. I also love people of all races. There is beauty in every culture. People do not have to "date within their race." This is 2011 I can date who ever the hell I please, I do not care what "color" someone is. A human is a human.


Anyways, a little bit about me, I'm about to be 21. I have black hair, green eyes. I used to wear my hair big a lot now I do it rarely, when I feel like it. I don't judge people before getting to know them and I believe people should look however they please because as long as you like yourself thats what matters. If people hate on you, you don't want friends like that anyway. A lot of people know who I am because of Myspace. They know my name but not who I REALLY AM. People love to spread rumors because they still play immature high school games. All I think to myself is, let that haters talk shi* because at the end of the day I'm not the ignorant fool, I don't judge others without knowing them.


 Ask me anything I'll tell you the truth in a heart beat.  Extremely honest, I've been through hell & back if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here for advice, hit me up on facebook. www.facebook.com/polkadotskaulitz  Everyone asks did you get your hair from Bill Kaulitz? NO! I had big hair before I knew who he was and I did it because I liked Visual Kei bands. I used to listen to a lot of rock now I really love rap music.


Oh and as for my love life, I'm single. Looking for a guy with swagggg. (and honesty!!) Actually No, I'm not looking I'm going to let him find me! :] ( I doubt anyone will find me in this damn city, I am the only honest person here. Party of one.)


more blogs to come, this is all for now. <3